Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Is there anybody out there?

I have noticed that there has been some more traffic on my blog lately and I would like to know more about the people who might be reading it.

How did you come across it? Will you come back?

I would love for someone to leave a comment or even go so far as to email me. It would be nice to know if there are any other fat queers out there and whats on their mind.


Sunday, September 6, 2009


Holy F Balls, this year is damn near over. It is practically Halloween, then right around the corner is Thanksgiving, and then the next thing you know its "the holidays" and New Year's. Insanity.

Funny, but all I can think about now is the fact that this is the time of year when people start packing on the pounds. Summer is drawing to a close and thus less pressure to look good in a bathing suit, and all the holidays involve hanging out and eating (usually while watching football). This of course is just in time to realize that you need to make a New Year's resolution (you know, the one to lose weight so you can look hot in a bathing suit again). Vicious cycle.

Anyway, another month has passed. I have not made any new progress (well, maybe I did, but then I went and undid it). Although I have not gone and fucked it all up either. The starts are the same as last month (weight and measurements). So, in essence I am maintaining. Not exactly what I was aiming to do, but it sure as hell beats gaining weight back (been there done that, not all its cracked up to be).

See, I spent the first half of the month (August) working hard and going to the gym all the time. Then about mid month I left for a vacation. And while I still went to the gym (not everyday), walked a ton, and did other physical activities (sadly, none of which involved getting laid) I also had dessert most every night and splurged more than usual. But I maintained, so I am NOT complaining.

I've already stated that I more than met my 08/15/09 goal, still so proud of myself for that, and now I want to set a new one. There is no way in hell I am gaining any weight this Holiday season. And to make sure of that I am going to set a goal to be 190 pounds by Halloween. To achieve this I will not do any fad diets or master cleanses. Just pure hard work and healthy eating. It is funny how ingrained it is in me now to eat healthily. I was on vacation and while everyone else (others on the ship, not my family or anyone I knew) was gorging and stuffing their faces, I was conservative. I had my egg white omelette with veggies and salsa from the buffet others were piling on lobster meat, sausage, ham, and truck loads of cheese. One lady even had the gall to call me out to everyone within earshot, "He's eating t0o healthy for a cruise." I bit my tongue and thought, "Bitch, that's why my entire body doesn't jiggle every time I take a step and I only have one chin." Seriously, girl was big. And the thing was I never felt as though I was depriving myself. I ate what I wanted (desserts were soooooo yummy) and basically ate just like I do at home. Why do I need to consume everything in sight just because its "free" and I'm on vacation?

*10 lbs. in two months. That shouldn't be too hard considering the progress I have been making, but I am expecting a plateau pretty soon. As they say, "THE LAST 10 LBS. IS THE HARDEST."
Bring it on. I am ready to make it happen (and I do hope this is the last ten).